i dont know whats wrong with me i feel like any day now your going to leave me i feel like things are different then they where in the beginning. something changed maybe i really have fallen in love with you for real this time? i wake up every mourning scared of getting my heart broken its eating me up inside. i feel like im walking on glass with you all the time i feel like one fight one thing i say to upset you, you would just walk away and id never hear from you again. i couldn’t move on from that i don’t know how I’m going to move on from any of this i never should have gone ahead and fallen in love best and worst thing i have ever done. when you leave ill be gone.
Song of the day
todays effects
Rose.
Coffee.
Toast.
Cigarette.
Math.
Work.
Buy Cigarette.
Veggie Burger.
Strawberry Milkshake.
Movie.
Clean.
Cigarettte.
Cat Power.
Facebook.
Shower.
Sleep.
Dream.
Goodnight.
The hole
its weird now i have a steady boyfriend great friends things to look forward one semester left of high school left, i can see the life i want just up ahead… i find myself thinking what’s going to go bad next. its funny when you find your self climbing out of the hole your looking below into the black, waiting for a hand to jump up grab you and pull you kicking and screaming back into the dark!
16697.) So, Ive been thinking…. I really think too much.
To love and be loved is the greatest feeling I have ever encountered.
my life is changing.
It’ strange how you can watch everything changing i can really start to see that horizon getting closer then I’ve ever seen it I can almost reach out and grab it. i don’t have a reason to cry anymore i don’t feel alone anymore i don’t miss anyone anymore. its strange feeling the way i only used to dream about. i never thought happiness was possible for me i thought i was just going to have to deal with my urge for perfection. i found it, and its funny because its nothing to what i used to find perfect… but it doesn’t work like that i know that now. he loves me and i love him that all i needed to hear.
I'm anna i'm a passive shy person with a passion for life with held by my own insecurities. i long for stimulation in my vague and yet bleak outlook on life. sometimes i see so much beauty in the world i think it may just be to much to handle.
